posted by Yang @ 12:38 AM
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Ramblings
Dear Children, once again, welcome to the Master Theatre of Boredom. Again, my inspirations for a great amount of writing is no longer as the moments have passed. However, to bore you to the depths of your gray matter, I think I will be able to do so. Allow me to show you these skills of mine.
When I am alone, I think a lot. I used to be alone a lot, not because I do not have friends, on the contrary, I have a lot of friends. Well, I do not want to use the word acquaintance because it is seemingly unfair to those who deem themselves as my friends. So anyway, people come and go, a fact that I have recently come to terms with and I have one person to thank for. This person truly made me see that people come into your life and no matter how close they are, it does not mean they do not leave. Quite frankly, they are not obligated to stay in any case.
Even in my late twenties, I am still taking my time to grow up. I have to give myself a pat on the head; I am really growing up bit by bit, no matter how painstakingly slow it seems. Many of you have heard me say, "when I grow up, I want to be a ballerina." Well, what I truly want to say is, "when I grow up, I want to be a kid." My fantasy place is Neverland and soaring with the lost boys. Might have to get on Tinklebell's good side, fight Captain Hook and stay clear of the tick-tock croc.
Girls phear phats; I welcome it. I will tell you what phats has given me: knowledge, wisdom, strength, compassion, humility and natural botox. I am not a perfect person; I do not even come close. However, like I always tell myself, I have tried. Not good enough even by my standards, I tell myself, there is always tomorrow. Tomorrow might never come, you say? I might regret not doing it now, you say? Sure you are right but hey, I am lazy so I am always putting things off. Someone said I speak empty words. Truth is always hardest to listen to but I will face it and do something about it. Often actions that follow will be the best evidence. To that someone, I just want you to know that I am trying my better now, I will try my best eventually.
So let us discuss about my escape portals: animation, drama series, films and music. They bring out all the tears and love in me. Of course, I am not talking about every one of it, just the ones that do. I view tears as a sign of weakness that is why I only cry when I watch animation, drama series, films and music. That way no one will know. All right, if you are reading this then you know. Oh come on now, don't you go all soft on me. I do not need your empathy, consolation or whatever you think I may need by letting you on my weakness. After I dispose of my tears, I am renewed. I can be strong for anyone who needs me to be.
I am your Mary Poppins. I am your Nanny McPhee. I am supposed to be the person who will be there when you need. So let me fulfill my role. Humans tend to forget the big picture of life. Well, sometimes they choose to pursue what they desire and forget it. To those who have forgotten, I sincerely hope they remember it someday, somehow then world peace will follow. I told someone of my white container. That is my ivory tower and it even floats in space. I guess I am more of a loner than I let on. How interesting a person I am. All right, should not be so peacock-like.
So why am I telling you all these? It is simply because I have nothing better to say and while listening to a few songs from animation and Jay has brought out some passions in me. If you do not know the meaning of passions, please find out or ask me. Do not assume because according to my dad and everyone else who knows, if you assume, you "ass-u-&-me". A good film to catch is "The Fountain". Well, there are other amazing films but I will tell them to you when the time is right. Right now, "The Fountain" fits the mood I am in. Jay's "蒲公英的约定", "青花瓷" and "最长的电影" are wrapping their beautiful melodies and lyrics around me. When I close my eyes and listen, a (bitter)sweet smile will appear on my face. Try it with these songs or songs that allows you to indulge in a moment of tranquility.
All right, too much is too much, I know it too. I shall let your eyes and brains take a break from this monotony. I will see you people soon, I hope. Meanwhile, here is a quote I currently have an interest in.
"Rain is from the sky and tears are from the eyes. That has been decided a long time ago."
Ciao, pimples.
posted by Yang @ 4:27 PM
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Encounter with an Angel
So, I want to talk about it but I really do not want people to tease about it because there simply isn't anything to tease about. So those people who know who it is and stuff, please just appreciate the fact that there are people who are just nice without agenda.
I forgot how it all started but I just remembered Angel wanting to come over to play, then I was like no way because my room is uber messy (please ask Jianzhou and Junyuan for more detailed information). However Angel insisted that it came and helped pack it with me. Frankly, I was thinking Angel is probably going to come over and I will settle it in front of the television and we'll just chat. In fact, I had hopes that Angel will get lazy and not come but it did. Angel arriving at my home was the first thing that really surprised me because it lives far from me.
I was kinda just starting to pack when Angel arrived and it told me to carry on. It just sat there watching me pack at first because I was after all packing my clothes and really didn't want it to be helping me anyway. Then I cleared an area and gasped at the dust bunnies! No, they are not cute at all. That was when my dad and Angel stepped in to clean and pack while I just lazed around, rinsing cloths and getting stuff occasionally.
To shorten the already very long entry, I have seen more of my floor than I have in about two years and well, it is dust-free for now. Guess I will have to maintain it somehow and yes, I will clear it up totally somehow. :D
I feel really loved and really lucky to have such a dad and on top of that, an Angel. I know I probably take my dad for granted most of the time but he is family, somehow that makes it different from Angel. Angel is just a friend, no obligations whatsoever. I do not like people whom I cannot trust to stay around me after seeing my room, to come over and see my room. As it is, I am a little low on self-esteem, I am afraid that people will leave or think worse of me after seeing how messy my room is. So far, only three people has see my room and well, all three are still my friends.
No one has ever done so much for me. I am really, really grateful and touched. Thank you, Angel. I did not disclose your name here because I do not know if you are comfortable with it or not. However, as I have mentioned at the beginning, for those of you who know who this Angel is, please do not tease it about this. As I have also mentioned, there is no other agenda other than an Angel at work.
I know I am rattling on and on about it but I cannot help it. This entry maybe boring to you but Angel said that a repayment would be a blog entry, so here it is.
Angel, I cannot thank you enough and so I can only offer you a lifetime of friendship and whatever you need that I can provide, e.g. hugs, a listening ear, a MSN chat window, a shoulder to cry on, etc.
As for the rest of you, I wish you good health and all till we next meet here for my next entry.
Ciao, pimples. ;)
posted by Yang @ 10:40 PM
Friday, March 14, 2008
Short Note
Hey! Fans from all sections of the Orchestra! Thank you for once again viewing my blog when I specifically tell you not to.
Anyway, since you are here, I might as well say some boring stuff so that I can get you to bugger off sooner.
Congrats to the new committee! Let us welcome Jun Liang, our first baby of the new batch into NPCO! Guanjie, now that you are the next generation of Master of Spare Parts, you must honour our lineage. I want to tell four girls that I love them a lot, here goes (not in any sort of order except alphabetically): Jieyin, Libei, Weiqi, Xiuting. There is a group of people I want to thank for making me my life an absolute disaster: NPCO! All right, I lied, you pimples are a big part of my life. :)
Other news: I am still up for adoption, interested parties please contact me. Information: I am very easy to maintain.
NPCO babies, I am here for you, more importantly, I love you and most importantly, I am the cutest one!
Oh my, I even bore myself as I am writing this. -yawns- I shall give you pimples more drama in my next post. Probably entitled "Gone with the Wind". Stay tuned!
Ciao, pimples!
P.S.: The Leap Years is a good film. :)
posted by Yang @ 7:37 PM
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Photos/outing aft' AGM'08
posted by ferren @ 11:05 PM
